I seek the floor

I try to express myself. Here´s an example from yesterday night when I was very tired and a bit angry without a reason:

I seek the floor. Tired am I. The pills are affecting me. A week of work is affecting me. A gnawing anger affects me. Suddenly anger pops up. I fend it off. And I manage to stay calm. I still don´t know how to handle this anger. I have rights and obligations and shadows from the past.

I have to relax and not worry. Its ok to be tired, its ok to be unproductive. Word.